Kyle's Story

I was in a bit of a mess, isolating all the time, just scoring my drugs, going home and sticking them in my arms. All I cared about was where my next fix was coming from. I wasn’t washing myself and my house was untidy. I remember only having Cheerios to eat. I was only six and half stone in weight. I didn’t have hot water etc.

I was on the verge of turning forty and started to think there must be something better than this to do with my life. I started to cut down on the Valium I was taking and then the methadone. I stopped taking heroin as much as I was. I went into Randolph Crescent to visit the staff as I used to stay there when I was homeless. They told me there was a place called LEAP (The Lothians and Edinburgh Abstinence Programme) and explained to me what it was all about. So I phoned my doctor to make a referral on my behalf. While I waited to hear from them I managed to get myself clean for a while, but I was still mixing with the same people and ended up using heroin again and again.

I then had to go for an assessment to LEAP. While there I was given a list of where to find meetings. So I went to my first meeting that night at Lauriston where I liked what I saw – people being friendly towards each other and being supportive. That week I met someone who I am still friendly with, he asked me if I wanted to go along to Meadowbank on Friday to play football.

While in LEAP I wasn’t taking it seriously enough. I ended up relapsing, which was probably one of the best things to happen to me. I was sitting in meetings, feeling really guilty, and then it was put to me that they knew about my relapse and with that I was glad it all came out. After that I started to listen to what was being suggested to me. Now I go to meetings seven days a week. I’ve just finished my 90/90 which is one of the suggestions given to me. I attend Transition three times a week where I am learning to do a lot more with the computer. I have joined a home group and got myself a sponsor. I was recently asked to do a bit of peer support for LEAP, going back to do so and I really enjoyed the occasion. The other week, there I was at a drugs forum, all about driving towards recovery. It was brilliant seeing what other people are doing now they are in recovery themselves.

I am now looking forward to a better way of life now that I am clean. There is the odd occasion I bump into people who I have used with in the past but knowing I have the support of the recovery community I meet through LEAP keeps me focussed on the road ahead.

Last Reviewed: 26/11/2012